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Empty City

How does a city full of people seem so empty? An essence of ghost town rather fills the atmosphere.

Empty and silent they all rest. The lights beg for couples to dance under them. Sadly some of us are alone and still haven’t found anyone. So the chairs remain empty and useless. Slowly absorbing the cold air around it. 

But the heart grows founder as it thirst for love continues on every corner. They don’t realize what is right in front of them. Love has been there all along and hasn’t left. It awaits patiently as a ghost in the air for one to merely catch glimpse of it. Waiting and watching.

Moab Nights

The stars stranded together

One by one they light a candle

To brighten cold nights.

Many I have missed.

As your ghost haunts my heart.

Forever...

I wish we were alone.

I need to be by you.

My heart longs for your kiss.

I crave the arms I loved years ago.

But times have changed.

The nights creeped in.

The days grew long.

As a sea grew between us,

I told myself when we met...

I would never let you go.

A voice from behind said;

 "Forever in your heart he is yours."

From then on a journey began.

We grew in each other's company,

Then the fork in the road grew between us.

My last night with you would come to an end.

I hugged you for the last time.

The hardest goodbye.

I watch your hand leave mine.

For what it seemed like forever.

Until...

The I Don't Know

How can there be so much joy and beauty on this blue canvas. When clearly, in the bluest of blues there is unbearable sadness. I want to keep her with me. But she is his. His daughter. She left her beauty mark on this earth. How could you take her away from me?? It's still unbelievable that one moment she's here and the next she's gargles for her last breath. Her husband's song rings in the room. The last thing she heard before she went. She told me not to cry and not to bare sadness... how could I not welcome it in. Like an old friend. It's the only comfort I have in my lonely heart. My friends are not near me. Because I didn't ask for it. Though a small visitor wouldn't hurt. It would help vomit the lump in my throat that keeps me from screaming and wailing... why why did she have to leave. How could such a word as grief or loss come into my vocabulary so strongly. This pain makes me physically ill and tired. It puts an entire lifetime of stress on my mind. I need to not look at my old life and self or I'll accept it's ora. The only glance or gaze to look and study is taking baby steps as the journey begins

Don't Let It End

My heart soars when I hear your name.
I know you feel the same.
My smile grows bigger and bigger with every memory

Sometimes going back to the past is treachery.
The song we shared together showed up on the radio today.
The one I hope you hear again someday.
Every laugh, every tear, and every goodbye bursts through my veins.
It all comes down like rain.


Every kiss still hangs in suspense.
As the moment was quite dense.
I now realize you're a bigger part of my life.
It cuts me like a knife.

You mean more to me than most things and people.
More than people worshiping in a steeple
Someone I would sacrifice everything for.
Talk to till my voice was sore.


The Dance we call Life has entangled us once more
We miss each other even more.
The sound of your voice is what I long for.
The pictures give me a glance of what was truly good.
As though they should.

Waiting for you is like a sunrise,
Beauty and bright colors arise
A wake up call on my heart
Praying that we never tear apart.
Come and see me only for a moment
Surprise me and toast to atonement.

Love me for entirety as long as time will allow us.

~ Sabrina Black

Background Noise

Let me tell you a story
Among a group of friends...
A force is tearing a  them apart
And no one is stopping it.
Manipulation and lies.
Love and surprise.
Loss in direction
Spreading like an infection.
Fear and tears.
Betrayal and denial.
Add to the fire.

This concoction is brewing among our hearts
But some have been holding in words inside their mouth.
A person listening in the background
Watching it all fall apart.
While they sit in the dark.

Here is a couple of question's I must ask you.
How many of you committed betrayal against someone other than the ones in this room?
How many of you have made mistakes?
How many of you have loved someone till it hurts?
How many of you deceived one another?
All your hands should have been raised. As you see, you have committed the same act as your brother and sister. How selfish are you? When you have made the same act but you don't help the person next to you?
The war with your heart and mind towards the other person is only tearing you apart. Because forgiveness is a oneway street. I know a man who died on a cross and looked at the man whipping him with love and kindness. Why can't you look at the person who did you wrong with the same? Because this man loves them just as much as you no more no less. And because of what they committed against you Jesus is not going to smite them. But love them. And forgive them. You fall into petty woes of this world. And you let the devil tear your friendship apart. Are you going to fight with love and not let Satan win or are you going to dwell on revenge and let  him destroy you apart.


- Sabrina Black

Last Night

Now to the drums and the electric guitar

With it we will go far.

Come to me, in a sweet embrace.

Where I can see your loving face

This battle doesn't seem to end...

But tonight.. tonight... tonight

Fighting fire with fire!

Call me across the wire!

Tonight the stars shine bright.

Come with me and fight!

Our voices ring on the speaker 

Go Boom! Boom!

We will not stop

Till our banner waves in the air.

Like we just don't care

Let's make tonight the last night of our lives.

We are free!

Like the summer breeze

Try and stop us if you please.

But its in our souls 

And in the air we breathe.

We will rock this city with the notes we cry

Cuz we built it on rock and roll.

So... tonight...tonight

Fighting fire with fire!

Call me across the wire!

Tonight the stars shine bright

Come with me and fight!

Our voices ring on the speaker 

Go Boom! Boom!

We will not stop!

Till our banner waves in the air

Like we just don't care!

Let's make tonight the last night of our lives.

La la la na nina na la la nina nina 

Hey!

       Sabrina Black

Name

Scars may be visible

The marks of past aggression

Words of confession

Written on the skin

That was once thrown in a bin

Feet can venture far

Run Run away 

From this madness

Leave it all behind

Not a trace Not a sign

Keep going.... Don't stop.

Drink another drop

Again and Again

Let it numb the pain

Good Grief

Good Grief

The room looks the same 

Like it froze in a frame

Nothing has been moved or touched. 

Not a speck has been knocked.

Since you've been gone.

The bed still tidy

Trophies still stand mighty.

Desk collecting dust

My heart is still a bust.

Since you've been gone.

Memories play like a show.

Playing in the snow,

Foot prints are carved in the ground

Where you finally laid down. 

Since you've been gone

                                  The marking now stands as it should.

I wish I could;

Pull you out from under.

Wake you up from your slumber. 

Since you've been gone. 

A new dawn

Where are you?
Who are you?
I am lost and cannot find my way.
I have lost sight of the light of day.
Come take me where my heart longs to be.
I cannot see the direction I am going.
Endings come to fast.
Everything I knew was a lie...
Now I just want to die.
Leave this place that is not my home,
But crafted by someone else's mind
Where are you?
Who are you?
I don't remember who I am.
I don't know who this person is.
 Who is this selfish person?
This might have been me
But that's not what is written on my heart
Love will catch me.
I have tried to run
I have tried to hide.
But it's not the same
As opening your eyes
Adding a breath or a sigh
And believing in me.
My mind is quiet and clear
I will not shed a tear,
For the new is about to rise
Rising from the ashes born a new.


Sabrina Black

New Beginnings

Boondocks,I  got inspired this weekend to express no matter who they are or what you have done to them or vise versa; courage is the ultimate bravery and honor to have.That is the courage to forgive. Wish well to the ones that hurt you. Even if they don't deserve it. 

Lock the doors of your heart.

Someone is knocking...

Keep all the hurt away

Waiting for it to blow away.

The eyes you met long ago

Reappear in the shadows.

Lock the doors tight 

Barricade it shut.

They are coming... 

Keep your enemies close,

Keep your emotions buried,

Live with a fake smile, 

Wave till it hurts.

Knock. knock.

They won't leave...

Open the doors,

Let the hurt in one last time

Close your eyes tight and wait

Till your breathe disappears. 

 They close in

But hold you tight 

Their hand pats;

Welcoming you in like an old friend.

"It's good to see you." They state

"Why are you here?" You ask

They: "I don't know..why are you hiding from me?" 

You: " Do your eyes lack sight. Your scars are still fresh right on my hands."

 Open the shutters

 let the hurt go out your windows 

Breathe it all in 

Till it hurts

Forgiveness is only

Here to free you.

What are you running from?

A Light In A Broken World

Before this piece starts... I want to send my thoughts and prayers to Christina Grimmie and her family. As well as the shooting in Orlando. Don't live in silence if you need someone to talk to. Stay safe everyone and I'm sorry we have a world where suffering and pain exist. Be kind and compassionate to one another and hug your love ones tonight. We are all shattered in one way or another. We need each other to pick the pieces back together. Love will conquer all. 

The evening lights turn on

The rain goes on and on

My feet move on

Head hangs low

The world moves slow

I don't know anymore

This evil that lives inside

Is filled with lies

As it slithers up into my throat

I begin to choke

On the pain hidden inside

 Why is this world cruel? 

Everything its fingers touch 

dies and crumbles

But creates life?

How do we live like this?

Painting the same picture 

Over and Over

Killing one another

A mess we clean up and then move on

Like nothing happened.

We sulk and sigh

Then we turn our eyes

To another battle and bleed dry.

Have we not learned?

The world is a little kid

playing with sharp objects. 

Yet we keep on doing it.

 Suffering our enemy 

comes to steal and destroy

but we treat it like a toy. 

 We miss the point.

Suffering isn't a battle

That we create in.

We cause it.

But without it compassion wouldn't exist  

Neither would mercy and kindness.

We fill sorrow and pain 

But compassion snares

Its throne into our hearts.

It's easy to respond with hate

But its hard to express kindness?

Till it happens to you

We won't understand or comprehend

Instead of trying just say

"I'm sorry. I am here now. Show me how I can help you."

Instead of "walk away and move on."

Says a lot about yourself. How much you care about yourself.

Hurt and pain is not something you hold against yourself

But something you grow stronger from. 

It's okay to hurt... its okay to be sad... its okay to feel awful. 

Its okay to grieve. 

Love yourself and give love to others.

Imagine that.

The light would grow and glow 

brighter and brighter.

Than ever before. 

Light the broken world

not crack it even more.

 

 

 

 

Fly...Fly Away....

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My heart is somewhere else...

Flying in the sky

Finding somewhere to land.

In someone's hand.

Peaceful and gentle, 

Like the sun at daybreak.

I rise like the ocean

Ready to embrace my new beginning.

Embark on a new journey

Of this life, I never knew.

I have come close

But come so far...

I say goodbye to my dark cave.

Where I used to be a slave.

I know I am free,

From what was inside of me.

Take a breath, 

And a sigh.

Say goodbye...

To life, I knew.

Link: http://www.deviantart.com/art/Fly-Away-177275259 I met you.

Do I Dare?

This drink in my hand

Do I turn it over;

And walk away?

Do I let the rim touch my lips

Quenching the pain? 

Oh, the sweet nectar!

Lavishing across my worries.

A scar open

and bleeding over the bar.

Heart pulls and tugs 

the burden of memories

across its veins. 

He left for another creature

with lips.

More quenching than mine. 

On his mere face

love and hate have a war.

With my hands I stroke

the bruises left behind.

I am all alone

with a poison against my lips.


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Guarded

 Can't live like this 

 fought for my freedom

 felt every wound and word

Put up my shield

 

Yet you still through rocks

Sticks and Stones may never hurt me

 

But your words will

The earth cracks underneath 

My legs dangle above the crevasse 

More stones hit over and over

Like a bully with his prey

I beg for help 

My screams cannot be heard by your ears.

 But His love is more precious to me than you

My God is greater and a better man than you will ever be.

His voice thunders and quakes your very feet

His nail printed hand pulls me up

He looks at you with His eyes of love 

Places His hand on your heart

Whispers I love you, but you need to know what you have done.

I scream: Father if you love me at all you will need to surrender your chains.

I have had enough 

If you do not change your ways I will never speak or see you again. 

Your words hurt like knives and its killing me.

I am His the Father above and His alive in me.

Let Him breathe his love into you.

It is finished.

Frozen

I have walked this room.

I've touch this floor.

Seen the window a thousand times.

But I still have a desire to look

At what?
No voice to tell me I'm wrong
Where has time gone?
It snows outside
The cold bites my skin.
Where has my heart gone?
It left to find another
Daybreak lights the ground.
Where my footprints can be found.
Its hard to see who I can really be.
Heart come back to be.
Take me to somebody warm
To thaw my frozen heart.
I cannot breathe.
I cannot see.
What is truly in front of me.
Empty halls,
Sing no songs.
My mind is as cloudy as the sky.
Come and bring me back to life.
Where has time gone?

Why is all the Love gone?

Where are you love?

I'm here waiting

For ages I've stood...

I've sat...

Love you left me.

This barren land is cold

Canyons from end to end.

Grey clouds fog up the sky.

Bits and pieces of my heart 

Lay on the ground before me!

Where are you!

I'm tired of looking 

Here my cry!

Where is he?

My wonder,

My prince,

Or do I sit here

With your strings 

Attached and sown into my arms.

As you make me dance! 

Where is he!

How come the ones that come 

Into my heart leave right away!

I'm I not good enough!

Love why do you dismay?

My desire is clear as day.

Love where are you?

Why have you left me?

Who are you?

Who Are You?

To the people I write to,

 It is always a lovely sight seeing my work being viewed.

Knowing someone is out there.

Knowing that you care.

I ponder somewhat in my pass time

wondering who are you?

The people I speak to

The people who listen,

The ones who come here for help,

The ones here who come for inspiration.

Who are you?

Its been about two years since we met?

Yet, I have been clueless as to who you are.

Are you lost?

Are you dealing with anger

or life's endeavors?

Who are you?

Are you here?

If so, please answer.

Tell me if I help

Because I do care.

About each and everyone 

So, 

Who are you?

Sincerely, my lovely Boondocks,

- Sabrina Black

The Call of My Happy Place

The Call of My Happy Place

The sound of quaking leaves fill the air

My feet bare,

In the grass that tickles. 

Pools of water shine like nickels.

Birds sing their songs 

All the day long...

The sky breathes fire behind the mountain slope;

This is where I cope.

Here on the plains of wild flowers;

 I come here all hours

To watch the beauty unfold.

To hear stories untold.

Come with me,

Where the sun greets me

With its everlasting kiss

One I truly miss.

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What is Love?

Love what do I know

What is it?

Is it something I can hold? 

An old relic of time?

Is it soft?

Is it rough?

Do I get butterflies flying off my heart?

Love a delicate flower,

An innocent child,

Playful, and energetic. 

Soft and warm.

A safe blanket.

Love is easy to fall into

But hard to get out.

It's a deep warm pool

With waterfalls and trees hanging off cliffs.

Something I never want to leave.

Yet the storms bring me inside and pin 

Me against the sharpest of rocks. 

Love is scary

Love is a storm

Love comes with a price

But it's worth having 

Without it we are nothing 

But ash blowing in the whisper of the wind.